Long Road, Big News

These past two and a half years have been a long road. That's how long we have been wanting a baby of our own. That is three Mother's Days, three Father's Days, two Christmas Seasons, two long years wishing you had a child to hold in your arms. Most days over those two years I was be content with my life. I really have been so blessed and live a very happy life!

But there were days that would just get to me. When your heart yearns for something, sometimes it is hard to watch people around you have something you can't (yet). I wasn't bitter. I was determined not to become bitter. My heart just hurt.

After finally getting pregnant on our own last August followed by an ectopic miscarriage,  we finally decided to reach out to a fertility doctor to get to the bottom of the problem. But, everything checked out just fine. The only thing the doctor could see that was wrong is one of my fallopian tubes is pinched a little (TMI?).

Kinda a problem. Kinda not.

The doctor said we were one of the cases of unexplained infertility.  It was a relief knowing nothing was "wrong" but it was almost more frustrating at the same time.

She recommended proceeding with an IUI and we agreed with her. It was time to take the next step.

I was nervous. This was a foreign world to us. Plus, it was a lot of money to bet on a chance. But we didn't care.

So we proceeded, with high hopes. Unfortunately, we didn't get the results we had hoped for. Negative. We tried it again ... and again one last time. All three came back negative.

We were then faced with another tough decision. We knew what the next step for us was, but it was an even more expensive and more invasive process. It was something I never thought I would have to go through.

IVF.

Because we didn't have anything wrong, the doctor said we were really good candidates for IVF. She gave us 60% chance that it would work. The negative side of me kept thinking that was still 40% chance that it wouldn't work. But Scott and I felt good about it and decided it was time.

We started the 8 week long process. I won't go into the nitty gritty but let's just say it involved a lot of shots (sometimes up to 4 shots a day) and me feeling like crap for at least a month of it.

The only important thing was after it was all over we finally got the POSITIVE we had been yearning for so long!!

That's right. I'm pregnant! I still have a hard time believing it! But I'm now 13 weeks along! I am still considered high risk because of previous health issues so we are proceeding with caution but we are so happy to have gotten to this point.

All I know is that miracles happen. The Lord is in the details of our lives. And that I will never take this gift of motherhood for granted.