i can do hard things

Lately I have felt a little frustrated. Life's hard sometimes, ya know? I feel like I run into the SAME brick walls over and over again in some aspects of my life. And I don't feel good enough in some other areas.

I am really hard on myself. I know that. I always have been. I try not to be. I am sometimes hard on those I love. I wish I wasn't. I guess I just see the potential in life! I see goals, where I want to be and what I want to happen. And I want it NOW. I know. I know. Patience Lisa.

Ironically now that I am feeling almost back to normal, health-wise, things have finally caught up to me. Apparently I was in survival mode before and didn't deal with it mentally and emotionally.

I haven't started running yet. Well I tried but failed miserably. Bills have come in. If you know me, you know money stresses me out more than anything. And the side effects of medicine the doctors put me on is starting to take its toll. Something I knew was coming (and in the grand-scheme of things is minimal), but something I've been dreading.

This saying has been going through my head for the past couple of days...

I have heard this quote before many times in various contexts. It is even my sister-in-law's 2012 Family Motto. Good motto, huh? Maybe I need to be a Fackrell :).

I can do hard things. I can do it! When I get to only a quarter of a mile and feel like I am going to keel over dead ... I need to tell myself that. When I run into another bump in the road or brick wall ... I need to remember that. When I don't feel good enough for whatever it is ... I need to believe I am.

That's it. From now on, I can do hard things! Hold me to it.

Blessed

This whole wedding thing might be the death of me. Sometimes I feel as though I am on the verge of a "I don't think I can do all this" meltdown. There really is just not enough time in the day. Especially working full time and having my mom live five hundred miles away (Thank goodness for family phone plans and modern technology). There have been times where I've thought ... we should just elope. It's stressful, ya know?

 That being said I really feel blessed lately. It makes all the stresses seem not so stressful. On Friday afternoon I was in my car and I had this overwhelming feeling of gratitude. I felt so grateful for my heavenly father's interest in and willingness to bless my life. I feel so fortunate. So loved. So cared for. Obviously by Scotty, but by so many other people too.

I guess I never realized how many people cared and were genuinely interested in my well-being and happiness until now. My parent's and Scotty's parents have been more than generous and loving. I wish I could express how much gratitude and appreciation I have in my heart right now. All the small (and big) things have meant so much to me. That's all.

oh life ...

The past week has been a little rough. The roughness has been two-fold (of those folds I wish not to share). It's funny sometimes the timing of things. Just when all is right in the world, you are reminded that life is not perfect.

That things happen. That this life is a test. A test of  faith and attitude and endurance.

I have also been down on myself (unfortunately I am my own worst critic). Mainly I have been comparing myself to others. Comparing others successes to my downfalls and their strengths to my weaknesses. I feel things and people are purposely working against me. I never feel good enough sometimes ... most times in some particular areas of my life. I feel like I try and try and try and always come up short. Never good enough. I wish I could be specific but alas, as usual, details are not a good idea. You're gonna have to settle for another quote.

becoming more

I've been thinking a lot about life lately. Mainly how blessed I am. My heart is full of gratitude for what I have been given, the people I am blessed to have in my life, opportunities that have come my way and even the challenges that have forced me to grow. We live in a world where nothing is ever good enough. There is always something more. Something better. What is wrong with being content with what you have? I say nothing. I've been told, after all, a grateful heart is the greatness.

With that said, I have been reminded of what I need and want to become. I am nowhere where I want to be! This girl needs to get her tush into gear.

I was recently reminded of the analogy from the Lion King. #justgowithme
Mufasa's ghost comes back and tells the grown up Simba ...You are more than what you have become.

I've been thinking of that phrase the past week. You are more than what you have become. I can't get it out of my mind. I need to be better than I am now, especially with what I have been blessed with, which is a lot.

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Those are my thoughts. 

Here's to being grateful and becoming more.

Wardrobe Wednesday: just some life stuff

Today has been one of those days.
One of those days where you sit back and realize how blessed you are.
I woke up this morning feeling very grateful for my life.
And realizing I need to enjoy it more.

In all of living have much fun and laughter. 

Life is to be enjoyed not just endured.

Gordon B. Hinckley

Top: Macy's Tank: Downeast Basics Pants: Gap Shoes: Aldo Necklace: etsy

What makes you happy today?

Just curious.

Would love to know.

 

Oh and Happy Wednesday!

feelings, nothing more that feelings

I've learned that people will forget what you said, 

people will forget what you did, 
but people will never forget how you made them feel.
-Maya Angelou

All I have to say is amen sista!

This is probably a really random post, but it's been on my mind.
I've been thinking a lot about how people treat each other.
How one person can affect others so significantly

Both positively and negatively.

We all have either been apart of it or a spectator of it.

How you make people feel is huge.
Belittling them will not make them respect you.
Only fear you or disregard everything you say.
Not very Christlike if I say so myself.
People can put on masks but they eventually wear off.
And your true character shines through.

It has had me thinking of how I treat my peers, family, friends co-workers and strangers.
All I have control over is myself.
Not others. Not their actions or their words.

Sometimes I wish I did, but I don't.

I've realized how much your actions can really affect those around you and because of that I'm going to try to be better at how I treat those around me.

P.S. Brownie points for whoever knows what TV show the title is from...

you gotta have faith

Sorrow looks back, worry looks around, 

but faith looks up. 

-Unknown

perspective

I like this perspective.

(found here)

time after time

Life is all about timing. The unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available, the unattainable… attainable. Have the patience. Wait it out. It’s all about timing.

- Stacey Charter

And speaking of time...

Isn't this watch to die for???

Love.

food for thought

{ sometimes }

I wish life was this clear.

{ believe, seem, think }

Promise me you'll always remember: 

You're braver than you believe, 

stronger than you seem, 

and smarter than you think.

- Christopher Robin To Pooh Bear 

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